Wednesday, December 29, 2010

sticks n stones

by the way this is what my nephew says i look like.......

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Mixed emotions

Well my insurance approved my claim! At first I was super excited feeling like this is a step closer to getting this all over and done with. Can't believe how gitty I became! But after a couple of hours I realized " holy shit this is real! I'm really doing this! What the hell am I thinking!!!" I know this is the right decision and I know I'm doing something that I truly need. It's just really scary depending on another human being to reconstruct my face. I've seen before and after pics of his work and they look great,but none of them had the same problem I do. I'm also scared because I've seen pics of ppl online that have had awful outcomes. I don't want to be one of them. At the same time I've seen ppl with awesome results so that makes me feel better. I guess I just have to stay positive!

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

My first blog

Well this is my first blog. I hope I can use this advantage to help myself and hopefully others. Sometimes I feel like I have no where to turn because no one fully understands me in real life. I've recently decided to have jaw surgery even though that's not what I intended when I first decided to get braces ( but that's a different story which I will explain in another blog post.) Do I feel ready? No. Am I excited? Not really. More worried then anything.